Pre-Birthday Anxiety is a big deal. Especially as you get older the countdown to the transition becomes more pronounced.
I remember as a child dreaming that in the year 2000 I'll be 18 and that all of the cars and hover boards from Back to the Future should be arriving.
That was a dream of mine, when I was around ten. Hoverboards! And now where did the love of the future go? The love of untapped potential.
It's gone, replaced with dread, a fear of the future, a fear that it will never get any better that it is all down hill from here.
But look at the world we live in, a billion screaming angry chinamen, total economic collapse, depression, oil death, global warming and Paris Hilton.
No wonder we refuse to age, we're programed to like what was and not look forwards.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Friday, February 27, 2009
The Test, do it if you're brave.
1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
I was named after my grandfather on my Dad’s side who left two years too early to meet me, and my great grandfather on my Dad’s Mom’s side. I’m the oldest so I inherited all of the strong family names. Even my middle name means the same as my first name, so when all of the nomenclature stuff is competed it reads out as Leader of Leaders born of Leaders. So my name means a lot to me.
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
Grade… 11 I think. Getting stabbed in your back by your best friend and being stabbed in the front by your girlfriend has to hurt. But it might have been the other way around. So ladies if it take me time to say that four letter word that you want to hear that’s why.
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
I don’t know. My hand Writing doesn’t make me angry at me, or make me hate me, so I suppose I like it. I’ve never gotten booty from my handwriting so I suppose that there is room for improvement, but yes I suppose I like it.
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Steak or Roast beef. I know they’re not sliced meats. But really why not break some rules and go all out for the bread-slab of meat-break combo.
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
I have some nephews who I love like my own, but I’ve never managed to have any children of my own, and if it counts I’ve never coat-hangered any kids of my own either.
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
No, fuck me, I’m only good at two things, being mean to people and being fun/good/entertaining/nice/adequate/ok in bed
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Do I like BJs? Yes. I like BJs like I use sarcasm.
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
What kind of question is that? Do I have all of my fingers and toes? Twenty Six pairs of chromosomes? Two balls? An appendix? 100% of myself? Yes!
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
Yes, but only if I can take someone with me. Quackers you in?
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
Raisin Bran. No seriously. I can’t explain it.
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
My shoes have no laces, really they don’t so I guess the correct answer is I don’t untie my shoes when I take them off. To all of the shrinks in the audience, I have women issues, trust issue, issue issues and I end up untying my shoes right before putting them on.
12. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
Well even though Green Tea is not a Chapman’s approved ice cram flavour and hence not a real flavour I could accept it as existing if I had tried it. So rocky road is my number one.
13. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
Gender. No really, I can’t describe what any guy I know looks like, without resorting too words like tall, black, white, alcoholic etc. When it come to the ladies I know everything, I suppose that means I’m a jerk or something.
14. RED OR PINK?
I can’t see pink, or red. No really, I’m red-green colour blind in the red spectrum. Which means that for me, red is a dull colour, even bright red is bland, and pink, I can’t see. If you take a white sheet of paper and write on it with a pink highlighter there is a 80% chance that I won’t be able to read it. It looks like a slightly off white gray.
15. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
I’m a narcissist, I love myself, so the least favourite thing about me is that I push people away.
16. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
I haven’t seen blondie in a long time, and I haven’t seen JA9NE in years and Tania in nearly a year and Danielle in what feels like forever and Puddle in ages and… I don’t know I suppose if I had to chose I’d say Danielle, but I miss her from before I saw her last, so it’s complicated.
17. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST?
If you do, you do, if you don’t you don’t.
18. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
Blue jeans and no shoes. Take that world. Socks and Sandals, that’s right fashion world go fuck you’re self with a hammer. No lube.
19. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
A clock ticking. I like quite.
20. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
Green, I love green, it reminds me of so much that’s worth missing.
21. FAVORITE SMELLS?
Pumpkin pie. Stolen from Tania, but it’s true. Ladies if you want to lure me into anything your chances improve dramatically with pumpkin pie.
22. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Darkness.
23. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
What kind of like? As a friend, yes. As more? I don’t know. Would I look to find out? Possibly. Should I? Who knows? Is our friendship worth risking to know? Probally not? Would it risk our friendship? I don’t know, we’re both mature and responsible adults.
24. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
NFL, CFL, NHL, F1, NASCAR, Top Fuel, Funny Car, sex… etc.
25. HAIR COLOR?
Brown, or Brunette if I was a chick, but I’ve got junk so Brown.
26. EYE COLOR?
Gold in spring, Gray in winter, Hazel in fall and I’m never near a mirror in summer.
27. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
Nope, I refuse to finger bang my eyes.
28. FAVORITE FOOD?
Anything I can cook and anything I order in restaurants.
29. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
Happy endings, I wish them for humanity so why not for my ficton.
30. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Red Dawn.
31. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Summer, because fuck you winter and snow and cold and suck and snow and cold and…
32. HUGS OR KISSES?
Box? Kisses.
33. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
I refuse to speculate.
34. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
I’ll give you a hint, if I tagged you I want to know what your answers are.
35. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
“The Reality Dysfunction” by Peter F. Hamilton
36. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
A Beer, well I don’t have a mouse pad but the place where I would put a mouse with this computer is been taken up by a beer.
37. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
Nothing, zero, that’s two days, counting today with no TV.
38. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
The Stones, they never joined a mystic crazy cult.
39. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
Vancouver, for my grandmother’s wedding. I miss her.
40. WHERE WERE YOU BORN
The Nation’s Capital! Born and raised Ottawa boy!
41. WHAT SUPERPOWER WOULD YOU TAKE IF GIVEN THE CHOICE?
Knowing what I will succeeded at before making the attempt.
I was named after my grandfather on my Dad’s side who left two years too early to meet me, and my great grandfather on my Dad’s Mom’s side. I’m the oldest so I inherited all of the strong family names. Even my middle name means the same as my first name, so when all of the nomenclature stuff is competed it reads out as Leader of Leaders born of Leaders. So my name means a lot to me.
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
Grade… 11 I think. Getting stabbed in your back by your best friend and being stabbed in the front by your girlfriend has to hurt. But it might have been the other way around. So ladies if it take me time to say that four letter word that you want to hear that’s why.
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
I don’t know. My hand Writing doesn’t make me angry at me, or make me hate me, so I suppose I like it. I’ve never gotten booty from my handwriting so I suppose that there is room for improvement, but yes I suppose I like it.
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Steak or Roast beef. I know they’re not sliced meats. But really why not break some rules and go all out for the bread-slab of meat-break combo.
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
I have some nephews who I love like my own, but I’ve never managed to have any children of my own, and if it counts I’ve never coat-hangered any kids of my own either.
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
No, fuck me, I’m only good at two things, being mean to people and being fun/good/entertaining/nice/adequate/ok in bed
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Do I like BJs? Yes. I like BJs like I use sarcasm.
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
What kind of question is that? Do I have all of my fingers and toes? Twenty Six pairs of chromosomes? Two balls? An appendix? 100% of myself? Yes!
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
Yes, but only if I can take someone with me. Quackers you in?
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
Raisin Bran. No seriously. I can’t explain it.
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
My shoes have no laces, really they don’t so I guess the correct answer is I don’t untie my shoes when I take them off. To all of the shrinks in the audience, I have women issues, trust issue, issue issues and I end up untying my shoes right before putting them on.
12. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
Well even though Green Tea is not a Chapman’s approved ice cram flavour and hence not a real flavour I could accept it as existing if I had tried it. So rocky road is my number one.
13. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
Gender. No really, I can’t describe what any guy I know looks like, without resorting too words like tall, black, white, alcoholic etc. When it come to the ladies I know everything, I suppose that means I’m a jerk or something.
14. RED OR PINK?
I can’t see pink, or red. No really, I’m red-green colour blind in the red spectrum. Which means that for me, red is a dull colour, even bright red is bland, and pink, I can’t see. If you take a white sheet of paper and write on it with a pink highlighter there is a 80% chance that I won’t be able to read it. It looks like a slightly off white gray.
15. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
I’m a narcissist, I love myself, so the least favourite thing about me is that I push people away.
16. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
I haven’t seen blondie in a long time, and I haven’t seen JA9NE in years and Tania in nearly a year and Danielle in what feels like forever and Puddle in ages and… I don’t know I suppose if I had to chose I’d say Danielle, but I miss her from before I saw her last, so it’s complicated.
17. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST?
If you do, you do, if you don’t you don’t.
18. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
Blue jeans and no shoes. Take that world. Socks and Sandals, that’s right fashion world go fuck you’re self with a hammer. No lube.
19. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
A clock ticking. I like quite.
20. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
Green, I love green, it reminds me of so much that’s worth missing.
21. FAVORITE SMELLS?
Pumpkin pie. Stolen from Tania, but it’s true. Ladies if you want to lure me into anything your chances improve dramatically with pumpkin pie.
22. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Darkness.
23. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
What kind of like? As a friend, yes. As more? I don’t know. Would I look to find out? Possibly. Should I? Who knows? Is our friendship worth risking to know? Probally not? Would it risk our friendship? I don’t know, we’re both mature and responsible adults.
24. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
NFL, CFL, NHL, F1, NASCAR, Top Fuel, Funny Car, sex… etc.
25. HAIR COLOR?
Brown, or Brunette if I was a chick, but I’ve got junk so Brown.
26. EYE COLOR?
Gold in spring, Gray in winter, Hazel in fall and I’m never near a mirror in summer.
27. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
Nope, I refuse to finger bang my eyes.
28. FAVORITE FOOD?
Anything I can cook and anything I order in restaurants.
29. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
Happy endings, I wish them for humanity so why not for my ficton.
30. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Red Dawn.
31. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Summer, because fuck you winter and snow and cold and suck and snow and cold and…
32. HUGS OR KISSES?
Box? Kisses.
33. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
I refuse to speculate.
34. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
I’ll give you a hint, if I tagged you I want to know what your answers are.
35. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
“The Reality Dysfunction” by Peter F. Hamilton
36. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
A Beer, well I don’t have a mouse pad but the place where I would put a mouse with this computer is been taken up by a beer.
37. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
Nothing, zero, that’s two days, counting today with no TV.
38. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
The Stones, they never joined a mystic crazy cult.
39. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
Vancouver, for my grandmother’s wedding. I miss her.
40. WHERE WERE YOU BORN
The Nation’s Capital! Born and raised Ottawa boy!
41. WHAT SUPERPOWER WOULD YOU TAKE IF GIVEN THE CHOICE?
Knowing what I will succeeded at before making the attempt.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
What am I writing?
Aside from this blog I write in my spare time.
I have two paper diaries, which I use as draft books.
The articles/entries/essays can be about anything but I have rules that I try and follow.
First I date everything.
I limit myself to one page single spaced.
If I change my mind I keep the old and start a new page.
When I have enough articles/essays I'm going to publish it.
I have a RPG that I play. I've been playing since 1991, which means that I have an encyclopedic knowledge of the setting rules and game history. The game is Battle Tech it is the single greatest table top game in existence.
Because of the way that the RPG was written as the extension of a war game it is rules heavy by its nature. I don't fault the CBT:RPG for what it is because it does what it is supposed to do very well, I just personally don't like rules heavy RPGs I like nice simple nearly freeform RPGs where the rules only exist as a couple of pages and creativity is encoraged.
So I wrote my own RPG rules, for Battle Tech, it has been posted online for criticism on the main BT message forums and it appears to be liked and enjoyed. I have a couple of friends who are into different RPGs and they love the simplicity and the ease of use.
My final writing project is the setting for my RPG, even though I have it set in the Battle Tech univers and that univers has been activly publised in for nearly 30 years I stll have needs as to the story that I want to tell. So I bumped the BT time line forwards to a pace where my changes will seem apropriate and then I began planning and writing.
Thats all for now,
Will
I have two paper diaries, which I use as draft books.
The articles/entries/essays can be about anything but I have rules that I try and follow.
First I date everything.
I limit myself to one page single spaced.
If I change my mind I keep the old and start a new page.
When I have enough articles/essays I'm going to publish it.
I have a RPG that I play. I've been playing since 1991, which means that I have an encyclopedic knowledge of the setting rules and game history. The game is Battle Tech it is the single greatest table top game in existence.
Because of the way that the RPG was written as the extension of a war game it is rules heavy by its nature. I don't fault the CBT:RPG for what it is because it does what it is supposed to do very well, I just personally don't like rules heavy RPGs I like nice simple nearly freeform RPGs where the rules only exist as a couple of pages and creativity is encoraged.
So I wrote my own RPG rules, for Battle Tech, it has been posted online for criticism on the main BT message forums and it appears to be liked and enjoyed. I have a couple of friends who are into different RPGs and they love the simplicity and the ease of use.
My final writing project is the setting for my RPG, even though I have it set in the Battle Tech univers and that univers has been activly publised in for nearly 30 years I stll have needs as to the story that I want to tell. So I bumped the BT time line forwards to a pace where my changes will seem apropriate and then I began planning and writing.
Thats all for now,
Will
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
What am I reading?
I like to read. No day goes by where I haven't spent time on Wikipedia or on message forums.
Right now I am reading The Night's Dawn Trilogy written by Peter F Hamilton, I am on page 52 of the first book, The Reality Dysfunction, and I'm impressed.
I like Peter's writing style.
I'll be honest even as a life long reader who had his own library before he had his first girlfriend I was intimidated by a trilogy of novels that had a higher page count for each volume then the complete LotR Saga.
His book reads nicely which is excellent.
I can't remember the last time I was intimidated by a book.
I'm looking forwards to this adventure.
Will
Right now I am reading The Night's Dawn Trilogy written by Peter F Hamilton, I am on page 52 of the first book, The Reality Dysfunction, and I'm impressed.
I like Peter's writing style.
I'll be honest even as a life long reader who had his own library before he had his first girlfriend I was intimidated by a trilogy of novels that had a higher page count for each volume then the complete LotR Saga.
His book reads nicely which is excellent.
I can't remember the last time I was intimidated by a book.
I'm looking forwards to this adventure.
Will
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